||[ Friday February 3rd, 2006|6:42 am]
Im trying really hard to be strong...and not let you know that i still want to be with you more than anything,and i can do that untill i see you or think about you. I dont like seeing you with other people. I dont like thinking about all the times we had
I hate knowing that its over and we'll never be together again.
So everytime i say im okay...im lying because im never going to be okay with out you...
||[ Saturday December 31st, 2005|2:53 pm]
Best Of The Year:
1. party: um Mel's and Anthony's birthday and Laurens. and more!:)
2. show: Laguna Beach
3. cd: Fall Out Boy- From under the cork tree
4. movie: Mr.&Mrs.Smith and The Island
5. song: I can't choose.
6. experience: Youth Camp
7. change: new boyfriend :)
8. book: idk
9. month: All of Summer
10. day: i think most of the days in the summer and fall :)
Worst Of The Year:
1. party: none
2. show: probably all the shows with all the gay people...
3. cd: i dont know
4. movie: THE CAVE.
5. song: Mariah Carey;s... i have to agree with melissa!
6. experience: Camp and Summer.
7. concert: none
8. book: none
9. month: ummm i think the first part of june
10. day: June 12th
Hopes For 2006:
1. predict something that you think will happen in 2006?:Um i think that God will really move in our Youth Group
2. what do you hope changes about your country?: um i hope we can say the pledge of allegiance
3. what do you hope for yourself?: happiness.
4. what do you hope for your family?: that we can get throught everything
5. what do you hope for your best friend?Melissa-That you will get your 2006 hopes and you and matthew will be together for a long time because your so freakin cute together :)
Lola-That you will continue to be the best sister and get your man!
Shandy-That you will be happy and you find the man God finally says yes to!!
Collifer-that you will stop being mean to me and ehem get the Stallion
Tucker-That you will come back to us!and you will find happiness forever :)
1. where were you when it began? The Lomasney's
2. did you stay up?: YEAH!
3. what was your new year wish?: hehe
4. how many boy/girlfriends?:um two
5. broke up?: not really
6. have any crushes?: yeah a few
7. care to mention names?:Tucker, Ethan , and Jonathan<3
8. new friends? yes!!!!!
9. had to say goodbye?: to Jon,but he came back.
10. missed anyone?: Tucker
11. win anything?: i dont think so
12. best place you went to?: Youth Camp. Echo Grove.
13. happiest moment?: When Mr.Bell asked me to be his girlfriend :)
14. worst place you went to?:um family's houses
15. how was your birthday?: wonderful :)
16. best present?: my roses and bracelet from Jonathan
Wow...i cant really believe that 2005 is over!
This is the weirdest bitter/sweet year yet...
i have no opinions on how 2006 will be because we all know how that always turns out...
2006 will be a year!:)
Happy New Years Everyone!!
Im so excited for tonight!!!:)
||[ Tuesday November 29th, 2005|5:43 pm]
i have never felt this way before....so alone. It's as if nothing can ever be the same for anything. It seems i ruin everything...or everything ruins me,which ever comes first. I dont even know what to do. All i ever do now is cry...i feel weak. I can't even stop sometimes and it comes out of no where. My smile is fading..even the fake ones. I dont want it at all. I cant pretend anymore i dont even know who i am at all. Who i was isnt who i am but who am i now. I keep telling myself that people care...then they turn away from me, or maybe i turn away from them. its all me..its my problems,my fault for everything.Every last thing ill take it all.
i never wanted to be this.